Hard

How can this so hard, harder than my expecting.
So want to quiet....
Can't understand is that my problem, or his?
Why not taking to me? Why?
I can't be difficult just reply a message in whole day, right?
I think maybe he doesn't care, I don't know what are we....
What kind of relationship can be as cold as us....
Can't feel loved, can't feel cared... what are we.....
Maybe more time? Or stop it right now...